It's time to escape from this one horse town... ;)

Do you ever get the feeling that change is coming? The kind of feeling that is strong, and confusing, because you can't really believe it's possible? Well, I've had that lately. It's strange, because I've started to accept that maybe the things that I most want in life will never happen, not in a depressed "why me?" sort of way, but more like "maybe it isn't SUPPOSED to happen for me" sort of way, because not everyone is supposed to get what they want. It's just that lately I feel like maybe I can change what's happening, and make my life a bit more interesting.
My main concern is the travel thing, really. Ever since I was a little girl I've been fascinated by the rest of the world, especially Europe (if I had to choose). I've studied all sorts of languages, and researched what exactly I'd have to do to go overseas, but it just hasn't happened for me. I keep hearing about all these people I knew in high school who have gone overseas multiple times since we graduated (damn Facebook constantly updating me on these things), and it just frustrates me that I can't seem to get it together. Yet over the past week I've been feeling like it's time to actually start planning and saving, and I'm feeling a pull towards England, so it looks like that might be where I'm headed. Who knows. I really want to believe that it's possible, but after spending so much time not believing in my ability to put events in motion I'm struggling to come to terms with facing what I want.
Anyway, I'm happy. Things may not always go the way that I want them to, but that hasn't truly bothered me for a while now. I think I've started down the whole "there are plenty of people worse off than me" road, and that's taught me that I can't let my own problems get me down. They still do, to a certain extent, but I'm not crushed by them. Plus, now that I look at it, I don't have too many problems to really worry me, and it'll all work out in the end.

I'm going to leave this with a quote that I really like, which doesn't have any relevance to the blog I just did, but I'm random, so it's inevitable.

Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Lonliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these things with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.

Laters