Ah the beauty of a blog when one has nothing to write but still wants to. I suppose I could gripe about the fact that I have ten thousand plans for my life and I just can't seem to get one started, but I won't. Or the fact that one of my best friends is moving across the country at some unforeseeable future time, but again, I won't. How about the fact that one of my other supposedly good friends always comes to me when he's feeling down about his life and needs my reassurance? There's another no. Although so far this already seems like griping. It all doesn't really matter, I mean, these people matter to me of course, but that doesn't change the fact that I can do nothing about the situations at this point in time. I just need to get my own stuff done right now. I have an application to start a course I've considered doing over and over again but haven't gone for, that I sent a few days ago. Even though I'm a shoe in to get a place in the course it doesn't lessen the scariness of the situation. It's exciting too, though, it really feels like I'm starting to work towards what I really want, which is to move overseas for a while, and I can't do that without some sort of financially viable career, which is where the diploma course comes in. So it's all a nice, neat little package (as long as it all works out). Too vague for you? Oh well, I'm not one to go into specifics until I'm more sure of what's actually going to happen. It's sort of like the whole fairytale of making a wish, but not telling anyone because then it won't come true. Just in a more adult sort of way, less wishing, more doing.
In general I'm happy anyway, so it's all good. Though it's getting colder here by the day, but we are starting winter here in Australia, so naturally the whole drop in temperature makes sense. I do like the cold, but of course I can still complain about it, it makes it kinda hard to think when you're too busy trying to control the chattering your teeth make in the cold.
Random rant over, feeling much more inclined to go to sleep now (good old 12am).
Stay tuned in the next few days for part 2 of my Twilight analysis. Part 2: The Acting continued.
Laters
PS. Happy 23rd Birthday for the 13th May, Rob Pattinson. I hope you had a great, relaxing day, and that the fans left you alone a bit more to enjoy some quiet time.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Friday, May 8, 2009
It's time to escape from this one horse town... ;)
Do you ever get the feeling that change is coming? The kind of feeling that is strong, and confusing, because you can't really believe it's possible? Well, I've had that lately. It's strange, because I've started to accept that maybe the things that I most want in life will never happen, not in a depressed "why me?" sort of way, but more like "maybe it isn't SUPPOSED to happen for me" sort of way, because not everyone is supposed to get what they want. It's just that lately I feel like maybe I can change what's happening, and make my life a bit more interesting.
My main concern is the travel thing, really. Ever since I was a little girl I've been fascinated by the rest of the world, especially Europe (if I had to choose). I've studied all sorts of languages, and researched what exactly I'd have to do to go overseas, but it just hasn't happened for me. I keep hearing about all these people I knew in high school who have gone overseas multiple times since we graduated (damn Facebook constantly updating me on these things), and it just frustrates me that I can't seem to get it together. Yet over the past week I've been feeling like it's time to actually start planning and saving, and I'm feeling a pull towards England, so it looks like that might be where I'm headed. Who knows. I really want to believe that it's possible, but after spending so much time not believing in my ability to put events in motion I'm struggling to come to terms with facing what I want.
Anyway, I'm happy. Things may not always go the way that I want them to, but that hasn't truly bothered me for a while now. I think I've started down the whole "there are plenty of people worse off than me" road, and that's taught me that I can't let my own problems get me down. They still do, to a certain extent, but I'm not crushed by them. Plus, now that I look at it, I don't have too many problems to really worry me, and it'll all work out in the end.
I'm going to leave this with a quote that I really like, which doesn't have any relevance to the blog I just did, but I'm random, so it's inevitable.
My main concern is the travel thing, really. Ever since I was a little girl I've been fascinated by the rest of the world, especially Europe (if I had to choose). I've studied all sorts of languages, and researched what exactly I'd have to do to go overseas, but it just hasn't happened for me. I keep hearing about all these people I knew in high school who have gone overseas multiple times since we graduated (damn Facebook constantly updating me on these things), and it just frustrates me that I can't seem to get it together. Yet over the past week I've been feeling like it's time to actually start planning and saving, and I'm feeling a pull towards England, so it looks like that might be where I'm headed. Who knows. I really want to believe that it's possible, but after spending so much time not believing in my ability to put events in motion I'm struggling to come to terms with facing what I want.
Anyway, I'm happy. Things may not always go the way that I want them to, but that hasn't truly bothered me for a while now. I think I've started down the whole "there are plenty of people worse off than me" road, and that's taught me that I can't let my own problems get me down. They still do, to a certain extent, but I'm not crushed by them. Plus, now that I look at it, I don't have too many problems to really worry me, and it'll all work out in the end.
I'm going to leave this with a quote that I really like, which doesn't have any relevance to the blog I just did, but I'm random, so it's inevitable.
Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Lonliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these things with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.
Laters
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Two blogs in one day... NOW who's overtyping...
Okay, so this rant is about social networking sites. They're all the rage, obviously, and I've used a few of them myself over the years. I just thought I'd run through my own opinions on the ones I've been on, because hey, why not?
MYSPACE: This was the first site that I was on. It was good for finding friends, chatting, and I liked that I was able to customise my page. I made it very bright and colourful. Unfortunately there wasn't much else to do on it, so when I joined Facebook I realised that I really didn't need two chat sites with the same friends. I am thinking of going back to it, though, there's stil interesting things on it, like a lot of new musicians just starting out like to use Myspace to get started.
FACEBOOK: I like this one because it has a lot to do. There's games, quizzes, fan pages, etc etc. Unfortunately you can't yet customise pages, so they can look pretty boring. Plus the administrators have an annoying habit of reorganising the site every now and then, which stuffs up the site for a while, plus applications also enjoy stuffing up a lot.
TWITTER: This is my newest favourite site. I know at first it looks like just a chat site, which technically is, but it's fun to write random nonsense whenever you feel like it, and plus celebrities like to write random stuff every now and then too. Don't believe every page claiming to be a celebrity though, there are a lot of fakes around, but Twitter page valebrity sources out the real ones from the fakes, so they're an excellent page to follow. It's easy to use, and you can customise the background and theme colours, so it is a good site if you don't have that much time to waste on a larger site.
BEBO: Apparently I have an account on this, but I saw no reason to use it. It's another chat site, and yeah, it's become relatively popular, but it's not that interesting to me. Finding friends is annoying, and you have to be in the same school network or something to actually make friends with them. I think it's more for younger people, so I can't really be bothered with it.
Yeah, so that's it for me. There are actually a few other sites as well, I can't believe how many there are even though there's really no need for them, and I'm certainly not planning on trying them out any time soon.
MYSPACE: This was the first site that I was on. It was good for finding friends, chatting, and I liked that I was able to customise my page. I made it very bright and colourful. Unfortunately there wasn't much else to do on it, so when I joined Facebook I realised that I really didn't need two chat sites with the same friends. I am thinking of going back to it, though, there's stil interesting things on it, like a lot of new musicians just starting out like to use Myspace to get started.
FACEBOOK: I like this one because it has a lot to do. There's games, quizzes, fan pages, etc etc. Unfortunately you can't yet customise pages, so they can look pretty boring. Plus the administrators have an annoying habit of reorganising the site every now and then, which stuffs up the site for a while, plus applications also enjoy stuffing up a lot.
TWITTER: This is my newest favourite site. I know at first it looks like just a chat site, which technically is, but it's fun to write random nonsense whenever you feel like it, and plus celebrities like to write random stuff every now and then too. Don't believe every page claiming to be a celebrity though, there are a lot of fakes around, but Twitter page valebrity sources out the real ones from the fakes, so they're an excellent page to follow. It's easy to use, and you can customise the background and theme colours, so it is a good site if you don't have that much time to waste on a larger site.
BEBO: Apparently I have an account on this, but I saw no reason to use it. It's another chat site, and yeah, it's become relatively popular, but it's not that interesting to me. Finding friends is annoying, and you have to be in the same school network or something to actually make friends with them. I think it's more for younger people, so I can't really be bothered with it.
Yeah, so that's it for me. There are actually a few other sites as well, I can't believe how many there are even though there's really no need for them, and I'm certainly not planning on trying them out any time soon.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
The Official Christina D blog
Have you noticed how everything a celebrity does has to say 'official'? Now, I can understand that, of course, there are so many people out there trying to impersonate celebrities that it takes A LOT of verifying before a page can be trusted (if you're on Twitter check out valebrity for real celebrities twitter accounts). Well, I'm no celebrity, but this IS my official blog, so I may as well call it that. I'm still trying to decide where exactly this is going to lead, whether it turns into social commentary (although I don't pay that much attention these days so it may be just commentary about the 'one-horse town' in which I currently live), or just continues as ramblings that may or may not have a solid basis in reality. Either way, it's gonna be crazy.
I've looked at a couple of blog pages today, and they are FUNNY. Funny strange AND funny haha. See, if I wasn't here in Australia, away from absolutely anything of interest happening in the world I'd have a lot more to write. As it is I just have to write about my own life. Which reminds me. One of my best friends is thinking of taking a spectacular job offer in Perth. For those of you who don't know Australia, that's about 3700kms away from where I live, which is about as far as you can move away while still living on continental Australia. Totally not my fault, I SWEAR... Nah, it's a good opportunity for him, but seriously, the other side of Australia??! What's the deal?? Plus there's a lot more desert over that side!! I'm just saying, let's see how great he feels after moving there and dying of dehydration... Rant over, super happy for soon to be missed top 5 friend's list friend.
Omg, how did it get to be almost 1 o'clock in the morning??
Gotta go, sleep calleth the tired (look at that sentence, I AM tired)
I've looked at a couple of blog pages today, and they are FUNNY. Funny strange AND funny haha. See, if I wasn't here in Australia, away from absolutely anything of interest happening in the world I'd have a lot more to write. As it is I just have to write about my own life. Which reminds me. One of my best friends is thinking of taking a spectacular job offer in Perth. For those of you who don't know Australia, that's about 3700kms away from where I live, which is about as far as you can move away while still living on continental Australia. Totally not my fault, I SWEAR... Nah, it's a good opportunity for him, but seriously, the other side of Australia??! What's the deal?? Plus there's a lot more desert over that side!! I'm just saying, let's see how great he feels after moving there and dying of dehydration... Rant over, super happy for soon to be missed top 5 friend's list friend.
Omg, how did it get to be almost 1 o'clock in the morning??
Gotta go, sleep calleth the tired (look at that sentence, I AM tired)
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Two random blogs and a loss of sanity...
So, I wasn't planning on writing a blog entry today, and I certainly don't plan on writing one everyday. That would be like trying to write a daily diary, which a lot of people do of course, but I remember the last time I attempted that, and it was basically a sentence a day. Having said that, it was in Year 8 in high school, and I'm not sure my writing skills were really at any great level by then.
It was a really funny day today, with the family over, and friends too. My friend's little boy is the most fascinating kid in the world. Four years old with the most exuberant little personality. He's smart, too. I know that when my siblings and I were kids we were called smart, but I just haven't met a smart kid in a long time (not that I actually know that many children), so it comes as a surprise. He kept telling me that I was under arrest, and when I asked what I'd done he said "Nothing, you're under arrest." If you think about it that's a pretty insightful commentary on today's society, not that that was his intention. He likes to call me his best friend, and he's already becoming a mini me. Like today I was talking in a range of different accents, I think I was feeling particularly silly with all the visitors there, and by the end of the day so was he.
Plus, my twin sister was over. I noticed that we seem to have these very "us only" conversations, that can occassionally include our younger brother, but don't really manage to include any one else. Just an observation, we're just crazy twins, what can you do about it? lol We certainly had fun entertaining our little half-sisters for a while. Unfortunately they have a lot more energy than us 21 year olds do, which made the resulting noise more annoying than cute. Plus the littlest one kept chasing my dog (Snoopy) around, and by the end he was hiding in the laundry. Our cat (Xyna) had the right idea. She hid somewhere in the house all day and wouldn't come out until everyone left. She doesn't like change. Any time we move something around, or mow the lawn etc etc she gives us a look as if to say "I did not grant permission for this change to occur." (Said in a rather haughty voice). Whereas Snoopy's like "Hey guys, love the new look. More exploring for me to do!" (Said in an enthusiastic voice).
Well, that's a short run-down of the days events. I feel like I had something to say, something potentially meaningful and life-altering... Or just random, who knows? It's so frustrating because I've been doing a lot of writing lately, but every time I have an idea I have to race to the computer, or write it on whatever I have handy. But with this I was like "It's all cool, I'll remember." HA! Good luck with that one genius. Don't worry, one day my rambling will make so much sense that everyone will appreciate the crazy lengths I took to get there...
Au revoir
It was a really funny day today, with the family over, and friends too. My friend's little boy is the most fascinating kid in the world. Four years old with the most exuberant little personality. He's smart, too. I know that when my siblings and I were kids we were called smart, but I just haven't met a smart kid in a long time (not that I actually know that many children), so it comes as a surprise. He kept telling me that I was under arrest, and when I asked what I'd done he said "Nothing, you're under arrest." If you think about it that's a pretty insightful commentary on today's society, not that that was his intention. He likes to call me his best friend, and he's already becoming a mini me. Like today I was talking in a range of different accents, I think I was feeling particularly silly with all the visitors there, and by the end of the day so was he.
Plus, my twin sister was over. I noticed that we seem to have these very "us only" conversations, that can occassionally include our younger brother, but don't really manage to include any one else. Just an observation, we're just crazy twins, what can you do about it? lol We certainly had fun entertaining our little half-sisters for a while. Unfortunately they have a lot more energy than us 21 year olds do, which made the resulting noise more annoying than cute. Plus the littlest one kept chasing my dog (Snoopy) around, and by the end he was hiding in the laundry. Our cat (Xyna) had the right idea. She hid somewhere in the house all day and wouldn't come out until everyone left. She doesn't like change. Any time we move something around, or mow the lawn etc etc she gives us a look as if to say "I did not grant permission for this change to occur." (Said in a rather haughty voice). Whereas Snoopy's like "Hey guys, love the new look. More exploring for me to do!" (Said in an enthusiastic voice).
Well, that's a short run-down of the days events. I feel like I had something to say, something potentially meaningful and life-altering... Or just random, who knows? It's so frustrating because I've been doing a lot of writing lately, but every time I have an idea I have to race to the computer, or write it on whatever I have handy. But with this I was like "It's all cool, I'll remember." HA! Good luck with that one genius. Don't worry, one day my rambling will make so much sense that everyone will appreciate the crazy lengths I took to get there...
Au revoir
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